January | 2015 | Invisible No More

back to sad

by pattikeno

it’s all going back to sad

my knees are made of glass

I cannot bow before you

I cannot genuflect

for fear that they will shatter

it’s all going back to sad

my head is full of sand

a dead weight hanging there

nothing Inside

too numb to care

too scared to watch you die

instead I stay so far away

and hope you feel my love

it’s all going back to sad

and nothing can stop it

I’m losing my ignorant high

spending my days hidden away

in the room with unlocked doors

and spirits of it’s own

my knees are made of glass

and I cannot run from you

I cannot run from this

in fear that they will shatter

my knees are made of glass today

my knees are made

of glass

it’s all going back to sad

08/29/01

pik

Poetry

2 Comments »

i can feel you
burning your name
into the flesh
of my arm
even though you
do not know me
nor can you see me
as i stand watching you
i burn my name
into the flesh of
your arm
can you feel it?
burning; pulsating there
against your skin
and deep into the
hollow of your elbow
i can feel it
i can almost
read your name
i can almost feel you
there
holding me
as i cry out in pain
watching you as you
burn your name
into my flesh
into the tender flesh
of my arm

–
…when will i ever
get
to meet you

5/2/01

©Patti Keno

Poetry the imaginary boy

Leave a comment »

Commandments

by pattikeno

You wanted me to grow

You said ‘grow’

so I grew

You must know I only

did it for you

–

You wanted me to change

you said ‘change’

so I changed

As I watched; My life

you rearranged

–

You wanted me to kill

you said ‘kill’

so I killed

Now this emptiness longing

to be filled

–

You wanted me to die

you said ‘die’

so I died

And I watched; you

haven’t even cried

5-23-94

©Patti Keno

Poetry

Leave a comment »

the blizzard

by pattikeno

last night i dreamt i saw you
out in the midnight air
holding arms up to heaven
–
you were almost Christ-like
as you stood there in the storm
gathering tiny snow drifts
like the scare-crow gathers crows
–
you stayed outside my window
for hours standing in that way
i wonder what was it
that you were trying to accomplish
what were you trying to say
–
i wanted to come down and join you
but i was too afraid
of the blizzard that was mounting
of the silence that was building
–
after hours of your silent stature
you opened your mouth to speak
I listened closely then
excited for your words
eager for an explanation
–
but all you did was scream
a scream that seemed to last forever
as it echoed into the darkness
–
You know,
I still can’t figure out
why i was standing there screaming
for hours in the snow
in pajamas soaked to the skin
with frost-bitten toes
and mind gone numb
mind
gone
numb
mind gone

–
101001

©Patti Keno

Poetry

Leave a comment »

My heart as an echo

by pattikeno

can’t you see

i feel

what you feel

i ache

how you ache

it’s who

i am

i am an

echo

i repeat back

every thought

every feeling

every

lie

my heart beats

singularly

alone

but my feelings

are not

my own

all i am

is an

echo

of all

that

you

are

–

1/5/15

pik

©Patti Keno

New Poetry

2 Comments »

the lake

by pattikeno

splashing in

shoving off

all these things

we love:

tree

car

boat

–

shoving off

swimming in

all these things

we love:

sun

bird

turtle

–

take me in

heat stroke saps

my strength

–

splash me off

and shove me

water saves

my life

–

all these things

we love:

tree bird boat

sun car turtle

all these things

we love!

1/9/15

pik

To: Amie

©Patti Keno

New Poetry

3 Comments »

snow

by pattikeno

snow falling

flakes fill the air

I watch from my window

and think of you

I am frozen with

remorse

I am frozen with

regret

how is it

that something

as innocent as snow

can fill me with

such pain

I laugh at your

past suggestion

from a warm weather mind

To hose the snow

from off

my car

how long now?

10 years

15?

I miss you

Imissyou

Miss

You

1/4/15

pik

©Patti Keno

New Poetry the disappearing boy

Leave a comment »

rejection

by pattikeno

this pain

this fear

–

irrational, I know

–

it breaks me

in two

and rends

leaves me

vulnerable

and

aching

–

irrational, I know

–

but I am

helpless

in it’s grasp

it fills

me with

self doubt

and

self loathing

–

irrational, I know

–

but there is

nothing

can do

–

irrational, I know

–

1/8/15

pik

©Patti Keno

New Poetry

1 Comment »

so far on Invisible No More

by pattikeno

So i started this blog as an experiment. I didn’t think anyone would read it at all. I may be a little sheltered, but in all honesty I thought poetry was dead. I was in for a wonderful and amazing awakening. I was searching for one single person who loved words like i do and i found so much more. I cannot believe how many people are out there sharing their words. I am so excited to be sharing in their beauty. So in regards to Invisible No More… I think I’ll keep it. I really enjoy sharing the poems from my past.

I’ve been writing again…poetry and prose. I’m working on getting my first novel published. I wrote it in 1996, so it’s about freaking time. 🙂 Also I’m not sure if my newer poetry is as good as my old stuff, (I’m a little rusty) but I’m going to post them anyway. Hope you enjoy…

thanks for reading,

Patti.

ramblings

4 Comments »

October skies

by pattikeno

just watch me melt
just watch me ooze
into this silence
just watch me disappear
nothing left
no one here
just watch me melt
and leave this world behind
October skies
will swallow me
October skies
will lead me home
on crow black wings
i will fly
i will leave
i will disappear
i will be swallowed up
by this murder
by this murder of crows
and no one will hear my screaming
no one will hear my tears
as i leave this world unaffected
unaffected by my words
just watch me ooze
just watch me melt
into this silence
just watch me
dis
ap
pear
just
watch me
M