Psst! The countdown has begun….
Are you ready?
The tentative release date is my birthday.
What? You don’t know my birthday.
What about the Ides of March?
Still don’t know?
OK fine… it’s March 15th.
Psst…..
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The 20 year goodbye
Take me
Break me
I’ve got nothing
left to give
Open me
close me
I’ve got nothing
left inside
Hold me
Scold me
I’ve got nothing
left for you
12/29/14
pik
©Patti Keno
would that i could
would that I could
erase you
would that I could
wipe you way
If I could
I would
but you creep back
into my life
you find a crack
in my armor
you find a hole
in my wall
you whisper into
my silence
you plaster yourself
upon my wall
so all I can see
is
you
would that I could
forget you
would that I could
let you
go
if I could
I would
I would
I would
Pik
7/13/09
©Patti Keno
this is how
with hand to chest
and lips to finger pressed
I cannot move I cannot rest
.
this is how I ache
this is how I break
.
with hand to hips
and tongue to swollen lips
I explore you with my fingertips
.
this is how I ache
this is how I break
.
with heart to darkness
and lips to one last kiss
I cannot stop I cannot resist
.
this is how I ache
this is how I break
.
with hand to knee
and mouth to desperate plea
I beg you not to abandon me
.
this is how I ache
this is how I break
.
with tears to eyes
and lungs to broken sighs
I am left alone without goodbyes
.
this is how I ache
this is how I break
.
.
1/22/15
pik
©Patti Keno
~@$@~ ELEMENT 5 ~@$@~
i’m so cold
I cry
and cling
to you
needing your
warmth
wanting your
touch
longing for
your arms
around me
but you stand
before me
in ignorance
not seeing
my teeth
as they
chatter violently
i’m cold
make me warm
I beg you
looking at the
warm layers
of clothing
You are wearing
you look at
me, but
you don’t seem
to notice
my tee-shirt
and jeans
my cold
apparel
i cry
and cling
to you
needing your
warmth
wanting your
touch
longing for
your arms
around me
you look
at me
as if i’m
some kind
of child
annoying you
with questions
of life
you stand
ignorant
of me
of my
cramping muscles
of my
chattering teeth
of my
freezing bones
HOLD ME!
I Scream
but as your
arms enclose
me
I finally
realize
you’re the
one
who’s making
me cold
–
12/8/98
pik
©Patti Keno
heat
I wait here in this
heat
so silent so
unbearable
I wait and
I retract
I recoil
I step back
you stifle me
with your eyes
speechless
i lose everything
i worked
so hard
to gain
I try to contain
to elliviate
the ache
this silence
that echoes past
my refrain
and ends well into
my chorus
I wait
I retract
I dissolve
I disappear
waiting here
for you
5.17.01
Pik
©Patti Keno
and you are…
and you are moving too fast
you silence my heart
from crying out
and you are moving too hard
I can’t feel my feet
the night is so cold
and you are breaking me down
bending me in two
swallowing my heart
and you are taking it all away
leaving me with nothing
I’m not ready to be alone
and you are leaving me again
the same as before
just like everyone
just like
everyone
and you are leaving without
a single word
you are gone
and you are gone
and you are gone
and you are gone
and you are gone
and you are gone
and you are gone
and you are gone
and
you
are
gone
pik
2/13/03
©Patti Keno
On turning 28
taking breaths to stop the way you hurt me
to stop the way you make me cry
I dive in with reckless abandon
this isn’t right…this isn’t right
leave me floating in this sea
wasting away, just wasting away
and everything is beautiful
everything is new
but nothing penetrates me
as i stare zombie-like
into the horizon
longing for something new
something other than this
other than this fake life
it’s not real
none of this is real
broken lips
and burning eyes
and this pain that is gutting me
rending me in two
nothing is beautiful
and nothing is new
should i force your hand
and make you stay
or watch in silence
as you walk away
watch in silence
broken and strewn
tossed apart from me
28 years and you’re gone
28 years and look at me
still the same
still that little girl
led forth by crows
striving to stay alive
when I’m cast upon these coals
weathered and broken
but somehow still the same
looking backwards always
longing for something from then
anything that stayed the same
but nothing ever stays the same
everything changes
nothing ever stays
break my heart
this girl inside a woman
there’s nothing left in me that’s pure
nothing left in me but pain
and silence and longing again.
how did i last this long
how can i last any longer
how can i stay
when nothing EVER changes
and nothing EVER stays the same
3/8/04
©Patti Keno
Invisible No More 