by pattikeno
last night i dreamt i saw you
out in the midnight air
holding arms up to heaven
–
you were almost Christ-like
as you stood there in the storm
gathering tiny snow drifts
like the scare-crow gathers crows
–
you stayed outside my window
for hours standing in that way
i wonder what was it
that you were trying to accomplish
what were you trying to say
–
i wanted to come down and join you
but i was too afraid
of the blizzard that was mounting
of the silence that was building
–
after hours of your silent stature
you opened your mouth to speak
I listened closely then
excited for your words
eager for an explanation
–
but all you did was scream
a scream that seemed to last forever
as it echoed into the darkness
–
You know,
I still can’t figure out
why i was standing there screaming
for hours in the snow
in pajamas soaked to the skin
with frost-bitten toes
and mind gone numb
mind
gone
numb
mind gone
–
101001
©Patti Keno
Poetry
by pattikeno
can’t you see
i feel
what you feel
i ache
how you ache
it’s who
i am
i am an
echo
i repeat back
every thought
every feeling
every
lie
my heart beats
singularly
alone
but my feelings
are not
my own
all i am
is an
echo
of all
that
you
are
–
–
1/5/15
pik
©Patti Keno
New Poetry
by pattikeno
splashing in
shoving off
all these things
we love:
tree
car
boat
–
shoving off
swimming in
all these things
we love:
sun
bird
turtle
–
take me in
take me in
heat stroke saps
my strength
–
splash me off
and shove me
in
water saves
my life
–
all these things
we love:
tree bird boat
sun car turtle
all these things
we love!
1/9/15
pik
To: Amie
©Patti Keno
New Poetry
by pattikeno
snow falling
flakes fill the air
I watch from my window
and think of you
I am frozen with
remorse
I am frozen with
regret
how is it
that something
as innocent as snow
can fill me with
such pain
I laugh at your
past suggestion
from a warm weather mind
To hose the snow
from off
my car
how long now?
10 years
15?
I miss you
Imissyou
I
Miss
You
1/4/15
pik
©Patti Keno
New Poetry the disappearing boy
by pattikeno
this pain
this fear
–
irrational, I know
–
it breaks me
in two
and rends
me
leaves me
vulnerable
and
aching
–
irrational, I know
–
but I am
helpless
in it’s grasp
it fills
me with
self doubt
and
self loathing
–
irrational, I know
–
but there is
nothing
I
can do
–
irrational, I know
–
1/8/15
pik
©Patti Keno
New Poetry
by pattikeno
just watch me melt
just watch me ooze
into this silence
just watch me disappear
nothing left
no one here
just watch me melt
and leave this world behind
October skies
will swallow me
October skies
will lead me home
on crow black wings
i will fly
i will leave
i will disappear
i will be swallowed up
by this murder
by this murder of crows
and no one will hear my screaming
no one will hear my tears
as i leave this world unaffected
unaffected by my words
just watch me ooze
just watch me melt
into this silence
just watch me
dis
ap
pear
just
watch me
M
E
L
T
into these
dark
October
skies
10/28/03
pik
©Patti Keno
Poetry
by pattikeno
Look at me
under duress
I am pushed
into the sea
to drown
forever in the skies
forever in your eyes
innocence
under gone
transformation
so benign
I am led onward
through the
broken sea
By a man
with fish parts
ahead of me
I long to be like
him
but forever
I am different
my streak
sets me apart
stubborn, shyness
and doubt
take over
and smash
me to the floor
I am left alone
to breath
no more
and I die
alone in the sea
10-19-95
©Patti Keno
Poetry
by pattikeno
I’ve cast my eyes
on a million skies
I’ve cast my wishes
on a million stars
I’ve lie awake
on a million nights
covered in pale moonlights
Listening to the sweet sound
of a million crickets
chirping their cares away
I’ve cried a million cries
Knowing that one day
to this world, I’ll have to say
my final goodbyes
3/31/94
©Patti Keno
Poetry
by pattikeno
I shake I shutter
I twist
I grind you into
my fist
I never meant to
be this way
this lost
this obsessed
I never knew I had it
in me
to lose myself
in this one caress
to lose myself
in shallow
thoughts and shallow
hearts
that’s all that’s
left inside
me
where is my
pride
left behind
on someone
else’s doorstep
I shouldn’t care
I shouldn’t care
I shouldn’t care
I shouldn’t care
but I do
as I wander
through these
shallow waters
looking for you
looking for you
08/23/01
pik
©Patti Keno
Poetry
by pattikeno
the wicked curve
of your neck
leaves me breathless
with desire
the tiny breath
of silence
that echoes
in your wake
aches inside of
me until
I am lost
within it’s
beauty
The shadowed hollow
of your back
as you move
fills me with
aching longing,
desire
for one touch
for one night
I ache with
the knowledge
that you can never
see
you can never
hear
the imaginary girl
as she lives
her imaginary life
and loves her
imaginary loves
I ache with
the knowledge
that you
will
never
see
me
10/16/00
©Patti Keno
Poetry
Invisible No More 