by pattikeno
last month never happened
i need to go back and fix it
i missed a whole month while sleeping
the days just seemed to slip away
they broke against the shore
and i never saw them again
last month crashed and sank into the ocean
just like my heart
it was left behind
and now i’ll never know
and nothing will ever show
all that i have missed
in that one missing month
last month has disappeared again
just like they always do
until i’m back here again
wondering what i did last month
.
.
9/5/01
©Patti Keno
2001 Patti Keno Poetry
by pattikeno
If only I could close
my eyes
and see your face
again
If only I could call
your name
and feel your touch
once more
If only I could have
known then
how much I would
miss you
how much I would
ache for you
Ache for the sound
of your voice
forever gone
If only I could
remember your touch
If only I could
remember anything
past the beginning
and before the end
If only I could
remember
anything at all
If only I could
remember
you
and love you
then
like I love you
now
.
.
8/1/00
©Patti Keno
2000 Poetry the silent boy
by pattikeno
I remember the nights
we spent awake
you held me in your arms
I remember thinking
“this is all I ever wanted”
“this is all I could have hoped for”
I remember snuggling deep
within your warmth
I remember the emptiness I felt
when you left
and I realize now
it’s your arms I miss the most
your strength and protection
your warmth
I don’t miss you
anymore
I only miss what we knew
those beautiful nights
we spent alone
holding each other
I miss your arms
I miss you holding me,
but I no longer miss you.
.
.
8/23/00
©Patti Keno
2000 Patti Keno Poetry the silent boy
by pattikeno
my love
how can you destroy
me so?
how can you let me
go?
and leave me here
in silence
how can you decide
to never speak
again
not a whim
not a whisper
of the way your
heart had turned
and I am left
here in silence
lying to myself
forcing myself to
believe that
it doesn’t hurt me
that it doesn’t make
me cry
you were my everything
and you never said goodbye
how could you destroy
me so?
.
.
09/25/02
©Patti Keno
2002 Patti Keno Poetry the cinnamon boy
by pattikeno
this
this grinning madness
sits before me
and eggs me into complacency
this grinning madness
waits
patient and impatient
all at once
It angers me
with it’s laughter
with it’s sullen glares
and sudden movements
this grinning madness
waits to take me in it’s arms
into the arms of madness
all around me i hear noises
people pushing me closer
forcing me towards that goal
that grinning golem
forgotten idol, left for dead
this grinning madness
laughs
and
laughs
and
laughs
as i stumble
and fall into it’s
open arms
forever lost
in this grinning madness
.
9/18/01
©Patti Keno
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2001 Poetry writing
by pattikeno
turn your head
when I arrive
make like you
don’t see
why would you
want to see
little old me
why would you
want to
behold my face
turn away
scoff at my words
feign interest
then turn and
run
TURN
AND
RUN
I have nothing
of interest
nothing you want
to hear
I’m a broken soul
lost and afraid
no one wants
to see that
no one wants
to know
no one wants
what I’m giving
away for
free
no one
wants
ME
sinking in
to this old
familiar ache
I cry
and I wail
yet still you turn
tail
TURN
AND
RUN
I’m no good
I’m no fun
There’s nothing
to see
here
there’s no
reason to be
here
TURN
AND
RUN
It’s all they
ever do
TURN
AND
RUN
why should you
be any different
.
.
8/21/15
©Patti Keno
2015 New Patti Keno Poetry writing
by pattikeno
I’m screaming
as loud as my
aching throat
will allow
please see me
why can’t anyone
see me
maybe I’m not
invisible
maybe I’m a
ghost
maybe I don’t
exist
maybe I’m real
maybe I am
and nobody
cares
NOBODY
CARES!
No one wants to touch me
who would dare
to try and touch
the girl who is not there
I don’t exist
I am not real
I am not here
If I was
you’d see me
If I was
I wouldn’t
be
so alone
I wouldn’t
be so
utterly
alone
and
lost
left behind
lost
and
left
behind
I am
a
ghost
how else
would
you
explain
my words
that fall
constantly
on
deaf
ears
I don’t
exist
I don’t
.
.
8/21/15
©Patti Keno
2015 New Patti Keno Poetry writing
by pattikeno
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2015 book Crafts Patti Keno writing
by pattikeno
those words
and the way you
say them
make me feel
stupid and useless
and I hate it
I’m not like
everyone
else
so quit trying
to change
me
I will never
fit in
to your cookie
cutter
expectations
so why do you
even try
those words
and the way
you say
them
cut me in two
leaving me bleeding
and restless
I will never be
normal
so quit trying
to make
me
so
.
those words
and the way
in which you
say them
leave me aching
and breaking
down in despair
.
I am not
stupid!
I am not
weak!
I am not
useless!
.
I am
NOT
NORMAL
and I
will
never
be
4/10/15
©Patti Keno
2015 New Patti Keno Poetry
by pattikeno
pieces of me
scattered
strewn about
dust covered
water stained
teeny tiny
little pieces
scattered
strewn about
lying in repose
and here I sit
aching this
old
familiar ache
longing
longing for someone
anyone
to help me
help me
pick up the
pieces
pieces of
me
teeny tiny
me
.
.
7/11/15
©Patti Keno
2015 New Patti Keno Poetry
Invisible No More 